MY NEW BOOK

I just thought that i'd keep you up to date on my new projects. As you all know, my Sworn 2 Secrecy Revolutionise was published on the 5th of August and up for purchase on lulu.com.

My newest book will be out in February, it is called 'Outnumbered by Emotion'. It had gone through extensive editing, but has finally come out the other side up to great standards, to me i think it will be a great read, since it was an awesome book to write. It is still on the lines of vampires, but there are other elements in too. For example, a wolf pack, i love wolves and will always try and fit them in if necessary. I don't want to say too much because it is hard for me to give you a brief over view of it because i want to tell you all about it.

But in simple terms, it is set way back when castles, swords, bows and arrows were around, kings of the house hold. It is from my own imagination, so the year i couldn't really tell you. In my opinion it is the perfect love story, it isn't just about two people falling in love, it is about the battle of the others around them trying to keep them apart.
Please try not to be put off if your not into 'love stories' i think it should appeal to everyone.

I hope people will enjoy the book because i certainly enjoyed writing it.

Keep checking this blog, for a date when it is being release, there is a ling to the lulu.com for Sworn 2 Secrecy and it will be on that site too when it is finished and published.  

Thank you,
J.A.M

The 23rd of October is a sad day for all those who watch the Motorcycle racing. I am a daddies little girl, so follow my dads foot prints, i follow his loves and take them as my own. One of them is the love of motorbikes and the races they hold.

Today. Sunday the 23 rd of October, the races lost a brilliant racer, he was killed in an unfortunate crash. No one could have prevented it and the two riders around him had no where else to go but straight on. If you reading this and know what i am on about you will know that crash was one of the worst crashes with a fatality. These things just happen and there isn't anything anyone can do about it.

If you don't know what i am talking about, it doesn't matter, but let me just tell you one name, Marco Simoncelli, this name means a lot to people, he was 24 years of age and just starting to get his presence known in the MotoGP 1000CC races.

I am telling you this because i wanted people to know, just because one life is ending doesn't meant that it will be forgotten, you can write about it, think about it, remember it on the day for years to come. People will never forget the name of the rider and reminisce about the days he rode well, they will always wonder if there was a chance of saving him. But there wasn't.
I am telling you this because just because he is dead doesn't mean that we should forget. Racing is a sport, just like anything else, but with more risks.

Just for a challenge on this hard day, i want you to remember all the people you have last and write down three words that come to your mind about them. Whether they are good things or bad, it doesn't matter, not everyone we love we like. But they are still there in our heads no matter how long ago it was.

Never forget the dead, just remember the good times you have shared.
In memory of Marco Simoncelli, the Italian rider who died on the 23rd October 2011.

Thank you,
J.A.M

I have updated my poems page with 262 words for the challenge I set before. I thought I’d tell you why I picked the two tracks.

‘Vienna’ by The Fray is a short song, slow and steady, to be honest I don’t know what it is about, but I think it is about dying, hence the idea of someone in a hospital. I used a few of the verses to base it on.

            To be honest I don’t know why I am in such a ‘Doom and Gloom’ mind but I guess its that time of year, the cold weather seems to put in the mood.

‘Where Do I Go From Here?’ by Bryan Adams is a much loved song, I listened to it when I fell out with a really close friend, I felt lost and confused then, so I was comforted by the lyrics, they made me realise life had to go on even though someone was gone.

            I had to carry on, like a family dose when they’ve lost a family member, hence the line ‘the family only remember the good times’ I try to incorporate a little bit of light into the dark but sometimes it is hard, finding the right place for it.

See what you think about it and I’d like to hear your own and en explanation on the track or tracks you used.

Thank you,

J.A.M

A NEW CHALLENGE!

I am sorry I haven't updated in a while, but i have just started college and I have had somethings to sort out with getting ready.

But I have also just joined a writing club, for anymore information about this, please send me an email and I will get back to you ASAP! Anyway, I have been set a task, one i thought would be brilliant for all you other reader and writers to enjoy and have a go at.

Use a song to inspire a poem or a piece of approximately 250 words, it can be either fiction or non-fiction, completely up to you.

I am going to do and put it on my other page if you haven't had a look at it at a later date, since I haven't actually done it yet. But I will get straight back to you on it and will have an update.
Thank you,
J.A.M

I have a new page people, I finally realised how to do, with a little bit of instruction. But there we go, I have a new page for poems I have done. Just thought id let you know.

Now to the fact of why I haven't updated in ages. Again, there is a good reason for it, my laptop was away for a week. AWEEK! I couldn't believe it, I was twiddling my thumbs and trying not to put my head against a wall and banging it a million times. Not having a laptop was killing me. But a break well needed in the end I guess. But of course I hated it, I couldn't do it. But I am back now and editing my next book, the second on to Revolutioise, this one is called Desensatise.

Take a look to my new page and see what you think.
Thank you,
J.A.M

 

Last night I was reading a book but there was short conversation with God. See I got to wondering why are there different religions, I don’t mean I hate all religions, I don’t understand them, but I think they are fascinating and wouldn’t stop someone from being religious.

            I don’t like not knowing things, so when it comes to God I get particularly frustrated because I don’t know whether he/she is real or where they come form.

            I also wonder why people believe in a God, because by the looks of the world, with people being killed and the riots that have just happened, along with the disasters of the world, flood and drought and other things like that. I just don’t understand why someone would let these things happen.

My grandparents on both my mum and a dad’s side are religious, me nad my brother used to be take to church with my grandparents on my dads side like a little outing on a Sunday.

            The church it’s self wasn’t too bad either, if I could only go back in time and write down all the amazing ideas I got there it would be a different story right now.

            What I am trying to say is that im not religious and I cant seem to get my head around the fact that there are many religions around the world that don’t make sense to me.

            I would like to hear about your own religions, why did you become religious, was it a family thing, or was it your own choice. Post a comment about your own religions and explain the types of things you do.

Thank you,

J.A.M       

What annoys you the most?

I know I haven’t up dated my blog in a while. I have good reason for it. It’s just one word; the word begins with a W. You may know it. Yes, it is indeed WORK. I have currently been employed to work a Kennels.

A first it was okay, hard but I was new and hoping it would get easier. Oh I couldn’t have been more wrong. It seemed to have got harder.

            I am sure you know kennels looks after dogs and cats when their owners are away, but you might not know the work put into keep the animals happy. They are walked twice a day, in the morning and in the afternoon. Obviously fed, given treats every now and again, about obviously have a clean kennel to live in temporarily.

At this point if you have a dog think watch it how it might sleep so soundly, walk around with a pleased look on its face and there might even be that put if a spark in its eyes.

            Well look beyond that and I am sure you will find a little monster lurking. I am pretty sure there are dogs out there just waiting for a poor innocent person (me) to unleash it’s devil side on.

            It might sound a little daft, but please, the dogs at kennels bark all the time they make a mess constantly just after you’ve cleaned it. They get you into trouble but they escape from the kennel and create havoc in their wake. They disturb the other dogs who are sitting quietly, making them bark and jump up.

I get so frustrated with my job, as I am sure others will get annoyed for different reasons. But there is only one reason why I hate my job so much. It’s because of the rain. I get soaked nearly every time I work. The dogs get excited and start pulling you, I fell once in to a puddle and got soaked yet again.

You know what you get into one of those moods where everything just annoys you. Well I am sorry, but I am in one of those moods and thought why not put it into good use and put a new post up because I didn’t done so in some time.

           

I was also wondering what annoys you the most. Take a minute to think about what it is about the world that makes you most annoyed.

            It would be interesting to find out.

Thank you,

J.A.M  

HAVE FAITH IN WHAT YOU ARE DOING!

Most of my child hood was take up with writing. But I never knew I would get this far in life. I thought getting a book of mine published was so far away it was nearly in Mars. I just kept walking forwards, trying to get to the places I want to be. I lost hope a few times but I swear there is a guardian angel out there getting my faith back. If there is and your reading this then thank you.

For the rest of you out there, don't lose heart in what you are doing because there are too many obstacles, just jump as high as you can, run as fast as possible and get to where you want to be. I know writing is hard and editing is an up hill climb without a rest but once you get up the hill the view is amazing. There is just the down hill left. That bit is where you have a rest and you do a leisurely stroll towards another book you want to write or edit and it starts again but the hill is smaller.

 I know this might be a little bit pointless and as i am sure i've said before, don't lose faith in what you are doing because then you are showing people you have no dedication and you you've forgotten what it is like to have something that means so much to you. Don't forget the one reason on  why you are writing. Write it down if you have to, I know I have somewhere in  my room, lost but never forgotten because i have revise the reason so many times I can see the letter what I close my eyes.

J.A.M

I said on the last post i'd keep you up to date to tell you when my novel, Sworn 2 Secrecy Revolutionise, is up for purchase.
Just thought i'd let you know it is now. Finally finished it and published it on Lulu.com, there is a link on the side.

When you first published you need to order a proof copy, it might sound obvious but you need to. Anyways, i did and you should've seen me, i was bouncing all around the room, when i answered to door i could've hugged the guy but thought better of it. But i was crying a little bit. I'd been dreaming of the day for so long i didn't think it would come.

I'm going to keep this short and say if you want to do something so bad, you will because there is nothing stopping you, whether it is family not being supportive, your scared of doing it or you just think you cant.

            There is nothing in the world to stop you from making a dream come reality. Live you life and always be ready for the obstacles that are going to thrown into the road. Don’t be scared to jump your highest of fear of falling, there will always be someone to catch you again.

Check out the link, I really hope you enjoy the novel.

Thank you,

J.A.M 

So as you know when I first started this blog I was in the middle of getting my first novel edited. There were many things I didn’t know back then; the editing process has taken a lot of time, effort and dedication. But through the months I have learnt a lot of things about editing, but about myself.

            I’m not going to bore you with a story of all the things I’ve learnt, there are way too many to say on here. But I know there are many things in life not everyone knows. Like the amount of time that goes into editing, or how much patience I actually have.

I am just about finished, the editing is done, maybe a few tweaks here and there, but still I am there. Some members of the family don’t even know what I am doing; others who do know don’t believe I can do it.  A few of my friends don’t believe me. But you know what, I have worked harder than ever, at first I wanted to show people I could do. Then things changed, I realised I wanted to publish because I love to write and I want people to be inspired by me.

            I love writing, it has been a big thing to me for a good few years now, this is the first time I am actually proud of something I have done. Writing Sworn 2 Secrecy has been the one thing which hasn’t let me down.

I will let you into a little secret, I actually wrote Sworn 2 secrecy when I was 13, I was bored and I didn’t really want to do anything else, so instead I just sat at my computer and started typing.

            I finished writing it six or seven months later, I know you might think that’s a very long time, well it is, but there were other things getting in they way when I writing it.

            So when I finished it, I didn’t know what to do with it, I wasn’t really sure on what to do. So I left it, then when I was 15 I was introduced to an already published writer. Man, I didn’t think my life could get any better. She has taught me so much, I realised what I wanted to do. Writing is a way of expressing yourself.

            Whether you’re angry, sad, upset, happy or ecstatic. Anything you write needs emotion to grip the reader and keep a hold so they won’t put it down.

In Sworn 2 Secrecy there are many things I hope capture the reader’s imagination, but there is one thing in there that I want people to remember. Brother Hood, I won’t give anything away just yet.

            The three brothers in this novel experience everything, loss, anger, sadness, love, power; they have been divided and pulled together through a bigger force. I’m not sure about being a brother, but I am a sister and I know my brother doesn’t really need me to look out for him, but I worry about him a lot.

            I tried to understand what the relationship is between brothers, so I observed people with their brothers, I realised their bond is strong. They are both as strong as one another, but together their combined forces hold each other together.

            The three brothers in my novel are all strong separate, but together no one can stop them. The eldest isn’t so sure of himself, the middle is the strongest, physically, and the youngest is the best plans and ideas. But they need each other to get through their lives.

I wanted to promote my novel and I will let you know what it is out for purchase, but it won’t be long now.

Thank you, 

J.A.M      

The closer to finishing something the faster your heart beats and the harder you work. It gives you a heart stopping wrench of hope.

I can say, through experience, your first novel will be the best thing ever, the feeling you get when your nearly there, it can never be beaten. Im sure your aware writing the actual novel is the easy bit, it when you start the editing it get hard. Once you get into it you find there are the same mistakes all the way through and you have to change all of them. I know it can sometimes feel like a never ending task.

But you know it can always be made easier when you have someone who knows what they are doing and what they are looking for, they will clue you into what your doing. I know what you look at it the pages of your novel, when you don't know what your looking at it looks perfect.

I did that, thought it was perfect, but realised there were a billion mistakes, and I'm sure every writer who had just started out did the same. It's all about leaning, you have to learn the things you need to look at. You have to be patient with it.

Not only patience but also dedication, some people can do the task, but there are a few who can't because they are not 100% in the task. For you to be the best you can be you need to look inside yourself to find you are ready for it. To be a writer there might be a certain amount of fear. I don't want to admit this, but when i first started i was scared about what i was meant to do, if i was good enough. I didn't know what i was meant to do if they said it wasn't good enough.
But of course they didn't, but its that first and last step where you need to show your true feelings about the novel. I know after all the work I've put in I am going to publish it, but there is also the fear of people not really being bothered about it. But i guess there is always family.

It will be a bumpy ride for you, i know it was for me, but there are always people who you know who wont care, they wont be bothered because they don't know the work going into the novel. I know it will dishearten you to hear this, but its not what I'm trying to do, I just want to make you aware, but you have to rise above and get past it.

let the world of myths and legend open up to you, there are a million different things you could write, wither is be a fantasy, thriller, crime, anything, just get an idea and run with it. No matter how daft it might sound in the beginning. It will work out as you get deeper into it.

I am doing this post because i know as a writer, some need to have a little bit of encouragement. It is hard and it feels like its never going to end, but once you get the hang of it, the task will get a little bit easier as you get through it. If you are reading this, then just take a moment to think about why you are writing, just remember why you started writing in the first place. Always keep that in mind, don't forget why.

Thank you,
J.A.M

i have just read http://www.erhinspired.blogspot.com/. She said to use these five point:

1 We want to know about who you'd like to meet. Briefly describe them.

2 We want to know where you'd go. Briefly describe the place.

3 We want to know about the one object you would hold till death. describe briefly

4 We'd like to know about the perfect job. Describe what it is and what you do.

5 Include the last line from a poem, something that is relevant to you. don't forget to credit the quote to the author at the end.

I know you might be a little confused, but let me explain. These five points will be five verses of a poem, it doesn't have to rhyme, but you have to use the five poems to explain what you wish your life is going to be like in to future. Five points, five verses.
This is mine:

Hoping for a better future is me,
My perfect boy friend or husband is the key,
He would have to be sweet and able to make a good cup of tea.
He'd have to be funny and of course, good looking.
THe perfect man.

Hoping for the perfect place,
Life is better when you feel safe,
Life, for me, is better in the middle of nowhere,
In the middle of Texas,
The heat and the accent, is the perfect place and people.

Hoping for the perfect ornament,
The would have to be a wolf,
A wolf watching over the family i will have,
A wolf to look after the family when I'm gone,
Just because wolves are the perfect animal to love.

Hoping for the perfect poem,
Not something that is easy,
But i'll tell you what,
This is the last few line of my own,
'The possibility of a life with someone else?
It's just the heart taking over from the brain,
But it's possible.'
This is the perfect poem for me.

Thank you for reading this, have a great night and please send me your own. It would be great to see other peoples.

Thank you,
J.A.M

WHAT WOULD YOU RATHER BE?

I have recently read www.erhinspired.blogspot.com/ newest post, and I have to say she put a very good question out into the world. A question that I have asked people many times before. I know full well that people's personalities link in with the animal they choose.

So I was thinking, what animal most represents me, so here goes:

There are wolves, they are Pack animals and live in families, I love my family so it fits. They are good hunters and they are very cute, in my opinion. They have a leader, their Alpha, I think of myself follower in some ways. I prefer to go off on my own sometimes so that would make me different from other wolves.

So leading onto that I would be an eagle, they can fly and have a free spirt, they look at the world in a different way, from high above the land we see and even though i am scared of heights I think if I get up there I would lave. Eagles are beautiful animals, they are graceful and me personally I'm not that graceful so maybe thats were the similarities end.

Erhinspired thought that she was an elephant because the never forget, I think that she is right, she doesn't forget, but me I am useless and would forget my head if it wasn't screwed on tight. But then I was thinking, if there was any animal in the world it would either be the eagle because they live somewhere far away, they are free, they can fly high above the clouds and see the moon every night. Or it would be the wolf, because they are beautiful animals and they can run free amongst the trees and smell the wet grown after it had rained. Or trudge through the snow in winter and watch their pups play.

If someone said tomorrow there is a drug that they can give you to make you into anything you wanted then I would be torn between the eagle and the wolf. I don't know what is more precious to me, they are both beautiful animals and they both represent me in ways I don't think that people see me.

So give it some thought and get back to us, have a look on http://www.erhinspired.blogspot.com/ to see what she said, it is rather amusing, as always.

Thank you and have a wonderful evening.
J.A.M

Me and E.R.Hardcastle of http://www.erhinspired.blogspot.com/ have made another challenge, like we did a few weeks before using The Scripts Science and Faith Album to create a poem. We have changed it a little.

Instead, this time she came up with a better idea. We are using films that our favorite actors or actresses have been in. I have used Cameron Diaz for mine. It isn't very good, but here goes:

The Box is the only think i keep dear to me.
The Bad Teacher is the key.
If i were In Her Shoes I'd make a cup of tea,
Made of Very Bad Things. 
The Mask of her will just stop people from seeing who she is.

Yes, terrible i know, but it's still a laugh to do. Try it and send me your own through email or through a comment to that others can see.
Thanks,
J.A.M

If you write than you know that its a leap of faith, you jump off a cliff of normality and you create a world around you with words, imagery and everything that you can to change people.

I know that being a writer is hard, it is because at first your not sure that your doing the right this, when really you are just programmed to think that because of rules and regulations around the places you've lived and been too. You cant touch that because it isn't yours, you cant eat that because it your brothers. At school you wear what you want because it isn't smart, you have to go because its law.

But in your writing you cant take those rules and regulations out and you can create a new world for yourself to escape to at the end of the day.

You take a rick, you open yourself up and let words flow out of you. You take a chance, you open yourself and sometimes it doesn't work out. You make a change, you chance people and yourself, once you embrace the words of writing, the words of feelings and then what that things flow, you cant let go.It will be a part of you and i know that i wouldn't change that for the world.

I's never want to do anything else, everyone else is just normal, but me, I'm different because i want to be, i make my own world of insanity and i make what i want to happen in my characters life. I take inspiration from the world around me, from the people i know and i use that in my novels and ideas, draw what you want from the world, don't be scared to scratch away the normality of life, there is always a hidden meaning of the life that you lead and others around you.

Don't be afraid of who you are otherwise there is no point in writing, there would be no point. Have faith in who you are, don't forget who you are inside and who you want to be. I know that telling your family is hard and telling your friends is harder, but take it from me, there are going to be moments that people don't believe. But you know what i say? Stuff what they think that believe, if you want to be a writer then get your ass into gear and do it, because there is nothing better than to write what your heart desires to read.

I was reading a sample from 'The Marriage Of Hell and Heaven' from William Blake.
I have been thinking, I'm not really a religious person so i don't really have views on God and beliefs. But i was reading this nit said that Blake was happy to believe that man was the creator of God.
See that got me thinking, do you think that its possible to imagine such a thing because we don't want to face out own mistakes?

People said that it was the will of the Gods that things happen. But isn't it what we do that predicts the life that we will lead?
Why do we think of such a being from thin air that created us, when there are people who blame him for everything bad that happens in the world?
To me, i think that people blame a God for their own mistakes. I don't know if there is a God, to be honest, i don't really want to know, there are things that are meant to be left unknown, is there is a life after death a life of hate and misery that we call Hell? Or a place so pure its only for the purest of people?
Is there where we came up with the idea of God? Angels and Devils with Demons as their right hand army?

Me being me i get swayed by the simplest things, but in this i am sticking to my guns. In my view there is no God. There is no proof that we walked the earth, too much science has progressed to make me think that anything is different than evolutions made us who we are today.
So, when there are so many different divides amongst the world, have they seen things that are different than what i have? Do they believe in a God because they are too afraid of facing their own fears? Or is it that i am too scared to embrace the purity that we call Our God?

I don't know if God is read or just a fragment of the human imagination, if so then how did i get started?
I have just begun to realise that there are too many questions for one person, there must be others who think the same that can put their comments across so that i have hear your views. Or from people who do believe in a God, it would be very interesting to hear why you believe in a God.
So to all of you who believe and to those who don't, i would be very helpful to hear what you think and feel about my ideas. I would love to hear your ideas and thoughts about this.
Thank you,
J.A.M

I have mentioned before that i am going to do something really sweet from my brother who is going away to University. Well, I thought that I'd keep you all updated and I have finished.

I am ready to get it done and published, but I'm worried, sometimes I get the feeling that my brother doesn't really appreciate things like i would, I don't know if he will like it. I try to reassure myself that things are okay and he will like it. But on occasion, like tonight, i got a serious case of the jitters. To be a writer, I am donating some of my best work towards my brother and i had a serious thought: 'What if he doesn't like it?' I have found that i have asked myself that so many times over the days I've been working on the master piece for him. But the answers keep swirling in my head like a shark in water. All i can do is HOPE and sometimes i have a lack in it.

 I have tried my hardest, but you must know that inspiration doesn't come when asked for, it appears when you never have a bleedin' pen. So i have tried everything. I have walked around my favorite places and my worst. But then I found retreating inside myself in a quiet spot on my own and remember all the good times I've had with my brother instead of the bad I have got to where i am right now. I remember all the laughs and ignored all the arguments. I have remembered everything good about him, but used a few of his bad points, but I'm sure he wont mind.

Well, that's what i did and that's how I have got to where I am right now. But you may ask why i do this for my brother, the answer is this: Without my brother, i wouldn't be who i am today and when i think about all the good points of my life he has been there and i want him to be the star of this one. But then when i think of low points, he is always there to pick me up again when i need him too.

But please, just let me have one last nag before i leave you tonight, i told my parents and they didn't congratulate me on my greatest achievement then were more interested in their program rather than say well done to their child on her biggest moment in life. I sometimes wonder why i bother telling them anything. I don't know if i have don't this because I wanted it, or because i wanted my brother Jake to have it. I just hope o am doing the right thing here for him because I don't think that there is anything else i can give him other than my words in this book for him.

I just wanted to say thank you, again, to E.R,Hardcastle of erhinspired.blogspot.com she has helped me out a few times for this as well. Please look at her blog, i am sure you will feel inspired to go ahead and write something of you own.
Thank you,
J.A.M

Be honest to yourself.

My friend E.R.Hardcastle at erhinspired.blogspot.com has just declared something on her blog. She has asked the following three questions: 

1 Why do you write, really?

2 What motivates you to write the genre you've chosen? Is it a natural talent or have you studied? 

3 If someone told you that you couldn't write tomorrow, what would you say? How would you build you case to prove that the world would be at a loss if you didn't? 

These three questions have got me thinking. i am going to answer the questions. These questions are made to get you thinking about honesty to yourself and others. 

I write because i want to be somewhere where no one can dictate how write something, how to make someone. There is no one to tell me how to live, I create a world that is almost fair, there needs to be a little but of restriction, or else there would be no story there. I write because it lets me relax, to find who I really want to be, to be someone who I have always wanted to be. I write because I have found a world better than ours that contains monsters, demons, vampires, werewolves and so much more. The good guys, the bad guys, the bad guys they are actually good guys. I could go one forever. But all of the above are the reasons why I write.

            My motivation comes from the world I live in, the way that people act around other, and the way that the sun sets in front of me. I take everything from the world. The world gives me everything that I need. I just need to way to express that and that’s where writing comes in to it. My motivation is the idea of escaping Earth and into someone else’s in my writing.

            If someone told me that I couldn’t write tomorrow I would do everything humanly possible to show that it was a bad idea. I would shout at the person to say that they were mad. I wouldn’t sleep until I proved my point. I would write everything that comes in to my head, (and that people is a lot of stuff) I would turn everything I have got in to something amazing. I would create something that people would love to read. I would build a case so strong that no one could fight against. If I couldn’t do that, then what would be the point in my writing? If I couldn’t me a strong case then I would be lost.

            I put my heart and soul into writing and what you read of it, is my heart talking to you.

Answer the questions reply to this through comments or email, it would be great to hear what people have to say about this.

Thank you E.R.Hardcastle of erhinspired.blogspot.com for inspiring of my honestly.

J.A.M

I am currently in year eleven with a brother who is going to university very soon. Like the end of this school year. Ahh!
This is good and bad, i love my brother and want him to have a good time, but i don't want him to either because i will miss him a lot. Yeah, we fight, we are brother sister!
But, i was thinking on Friday, what could i do for my brother? well i have come up with an idea, i am going to publish a poem/passage book for him. I want to show him how much i care for him. I have found the biggest thing i am going to do, my novel that i am doing is big, but it's for me, for my own accomplishments. This is big because its for my brother, for someone i love to pieces.
I am scared about this, i want it to be as good as it can possibly be. I have been working on it for some time now. I have also got a few of his closest friends in on it. Just a few words from them to round it off. But the rest will be from me. But this is solely on me.

If you have any thoughts about this then please tell me. I need this to work; I love my brother a Hell of a lot. I don't think that i have said it enough times. I just hope that he appreciates it, i really hope that he does.
Thank you,
J.A.M

So, E.R.Hardcastle and i have a challenge for each other and for you fellow readers. This is designed to get your creative streak going. WE are going to use the tracks of 'Science and Faith' from The Script to produce a poem. The album has ten of the most amazing tracks and the awe inspiring lyrics.

I have been thinking about it for a while not and i think that this fits the bill for a poem, please leave comments of your own.

Trust me, like you trust Science and Faith.
Nothing will happen to you.
I am a dead man walking if you leave me.
If you walk away,
It wont be for the first time.
The exit wound wont heal.
You will be long gone and moving on because i could catch you up.
This=Love; Forever!
You wont feel a thing if you come back to me my love.

E.R.Hardcastle has also so posted one on her blog, please find her because it's worth seeing. Trust me on that. She is the one who has been there helping me every step of the way with my editing, I couldn't have got this far with out her.
So just for you, i am broadcasting my thanks to you.
J.A.M

I sometimes wonder if there is any wisdom in the world. Is it that people think more that others, is it the fact that people see more than others. Can they call it wisdom or is it just that they can observe? This is what the dictionary says:
The quality of having experience, knowledge and good judgment; the quality of being wise.
you know what i say?
Stuff the fact that they have the knowledge or experience or the judgement, i think that being wise mean, to me, is that you can see where others are going wrong and you can stop yourself from doing the thing.
People might ask you for your wisdom or ask for help, when actually they know what they have to do, they just don't want to hear it from them selves. They want someone else to say it. They want someone else encouragement, someone else's courage to do what they cant bring themselves to do.
So, to sum up, wisdom is just a world to me, It is just a word without a meaning because the so called meaning is just through observation and stopping yourself from doing the wrong thing there and then.
That's just what i think, please, if you have a strong opinion, the leave a comment. I am intrigued in what others think on this.
Thank you,
J.A.M

I have never been one to express emotion, yet i find myself falling in to uncharted area because of one guy, that guy was ONCE all I thought about. He was everything to me. But when we fell out of touch, he had forgotten me, but I never stopped thinking about him. Then we found each other again. I thought I loved, he knew he liked.

To cut a long story short, he hurt me more than he could tell so I stopped talking to him.

But back to the basic point.
I was asked what I'd want to write, well for you friend, I have found out what I have been looking for. I have found me true calling.

You told me that some woman writer wrote about emotion and men about action. Well that's what I want to do, I am not good with emotion because i have enough trouble in that area to last a life time, than to try and figure it out for my characters. I want it in there, but I don't want it to be the main focus. I want there to be action, I want to write about people getting killed and hurt.

I want to fine that one back guy to fight the bad guy, but each so evenly matched it hard to tell who is going to come out on top. That is what I have found out at about midnight, the same night you asked me question.

I want to thank you friend, you have been a huge help and an inspiration to me. Your success has spurred me on.
Thank you,
J.A.M

if you feel like you never belong, then think of a time when you know you were most relaxed.
  Whether it was a place or if it was a room in a house you once lived int.
   I know that i might sound really stupid, but trust me; you will find a place you will feel most at home.
   I have that feeling right now.
   When you write you can produce the best ideas when you are calm and comfortable.
   I have found that being in the fiends of the countryside about forty five minutes away from me is the best.
    I know this because i have spent days that add up to week that add up to months there. When i feel the light breeze on my skin as i walk through the fiend. Or the heat on my skin in the early morning. Even when i feel the drench of the rain wash away the discomfort of 'writers block' as i walk the dog. I feel at home there. I feel like i know my place there. When I'm not there i feel a certain emptiness in my heart, i never knew what it was, but now i know and i cant help but bask in its emptiness and feel lost.

What I'm saying is that if you go somewhere where you feel relaxed and calm and ready for you mind to drift amongst the strangest of ideas and wackiest twists of your characters life.
   I might be speaking complete and utter rubbish but i know that my place is out there and i know where it is and that i would kill to be there and live there for the rest of my life if i could.
   Ask yourself one question: Where did you feel most relaxed?
   If it is as home in your bed room, then great that is perfect, but for other it might be harder. But i know that you will fit in somewhere at some point.

It doesn't have to be a million miles away, like Japan or America, you can find somewhere closer than that. Whether it is the woods down the road. Your back garden or a room in your house. No one is going to judge you because of where you feel more relaxed. if anything you should be proud of it.Being sat in the same room is not the best for some people, it will work for others, but for the people who cant just sit in one room, on one chair looking at the same walls, them please get out there, grab yourself a pen and a pad and get yourself out of the house to find your place. Your heart will lead your feet.
   I know my place. Do you know yours?
Thank you,
J.A.M

As you listen to songs there is always that one that you love and cant bet enough of. No matter how loud you put it, it will forever just glide along your skin. The lyrics will roll of the tongue of the artist.
It will forever leave you inspired and forever warm. no matter how many times you listen to it, it can never get boring, you will never get sick of listening to it.
It should be like that with the words of a novel, whether you are writing it or reading it.
You will know when it is good or when it is bad. You read it and you will listen to the author telling the story, not you reading it.
You will feel warmed by the love or the cold of the hate. Confused but the crimes committed and the understanding of the loss.
To the people who are inspired by this, let the words roll of your tongue as you write when you what to hear and what you want to read.
My friend told me that you should write what you don't see on the book shelves, if there isn't a novel out there that you want to read, then write it, make it your own.
Don't let the hurdles of the editing faze you. you never know you might enjoy it, i know i found it fun in places and in others it was a little annoying, but i got passed it and it's well on it's way to getting published.
When you know you have got it right it warms you and you know that you have got it right and you know that it can be the best it can be, well until you write another one that is. You never know what there is beneath the normality of life.
No matter what just let the writer inside talk through you, don't shut it away, you never know what you might create.
Thank you.
J.A.M

Perfecting a story is like working you way to cut down a tree.
At frist you start with the outer layer in the tree. Which is like getting the puncuation right.
Then you dig and cut a little deeper. you look at the story line.
Then you get a little bit deeper and then you find you are growing much more confident in you work and being able to cut down the tree.
But what you dont realise it that the stump is the hardest part. The stump is the where the purest confidence glows that is the time when you are just about getting published.
You might get eevrything sorted out along with the blurb, front cover, aknoledgements and dedications. But what is the hardest is having the heart to get it published.
You might want to be an author so much. But you need to consider that you are doing it for the right reasons.
There is not really a lot of money that comes in to it, but then again you the pride that someone around the world knows your name.
On the plus side, you will have the knoledge that you have done something some people think is completely crazy and virtually impossible.
But my biggest advantage, it is to know that someone somewhere will be enjoying the same thing as me and to know that i have reachone one of my goals in life. I dont care about the money, yeah you need it, but writing should be a hobby, not a job. I enjoy it that way.
Spending my free time reviling the trust about a mystery and uncovering the trust in my own heart. Or producing a monster inside of something and changing it to something amazing and new. 
They are my reasins, befre you publish anything think of the reasons and think about is they are the right reasons.
Take control of your own life, whether you are sixty five or twenty five, who cares, if it's what you want then you will know.
Thank you.
J.A.M

Have you ever had that feeling like you need to do something so bad, everything around you says that you think you should do it?

Let me explain what i mean. When you have a craving for a muffin at work, all you see is either foor or another muffin that someone else has. So that make you want one even more.
Or if you are like me, wanting to write something so far out of your comfort zone you dont think that you can do it. But you see that is the beautiful cleaverness of the world. It will give you subtle hints that first to set off a little chain reacation of thoughts and ideas.

But then the hits get bigger until you read about what you think you might do, or watch a TV show about what you want to write about and again, it gives you a chain reaction of thoughts and ideas about everything. The plot, the character, the victims, the hearo's ot the criminals.

If i was to give any advice it would be, to go with the little hints and ideas that arei n your head. Whether you are typing or hand writing, it doesn't matter, you will get the ideas down either way.

Let the little hints spark off everything and let them speak through you and get your ideas turned into discription, speech or a title. It does not matter. Just let the ideas come to you. Let the hints press against you until you feel like your going to explode with ideas and ways you can twist comething to how you want and how to fool the viewers.
Thank you universe for being inspiration
Thank you
J.A.M

What if someone told you that writing and typing is just the same as composing a song. 

 Your fingers work in the same way; they are each moved to your soul and how they want to be moved not by what you want them to do. They move past the keys on the piano or on to different keys on the key board. 

Each time they hit a new note or a new letter, the song will grow stronger and harder and they will compose something so beautiful people will never forget about it.

Never give up on what you are doing, never give up on what you are writing or composing, never forget who you are and if that person is meant to be a write of novels, poems or music. It does not matter because it will speak through you. 

No matter what people think, no matter what people say to you. All that matters is what you think and what you say. How you said it will only matter to you. 

Forget about what people think and let your fingers do what they want because they know what they want be and what they want is what your heart wants and it is the one thing that ever matter. 

No matter what people may say they will never stop moving to the beat of your heat. 

Never for get who you are, never let go of who you are and god forbid anything happens to you that makes you forget always remember to listen to your heart because it will wake you up inside and it will make you see what you have missed and who you are inside. 

J.A.M

i have found myself being sat in a car with nothing to do but to listen my own thoughts and ideas inside of me.
My 'inner voice' as i like to call it and many others will do too. But it speaks to me. I know that it sounds completely crazy and unbelievable but it is actually true.
in my head there are twp sides, reality based and the writer side with the impossibilities of life.
One side verses the other, as in most novels.
But that is what makes you who you are. The ways that you can turn something normal, like traffic in to something exciting. The whaky weird ideas are always the best because you can dull it down a little for adult readers or make it more exciting and different for the teenage reader.
That makes the difference between a good idea and a brilliant one. with a little but more work on it.
So back to the basic point here, if you find you self in a car, train or, bus or even a plane, like i am sat in a car now. Listen to the ideas flow through you, write them down on paper, use your arm if you have to. This is when you are just you, because you have no one to impress no one to hide away from, no one to talk to (If you with your family then tell them what your idea is and see what they think)
Never be afraid to express your self, writers explore themselves and who they are as a person. It shows how you react to different things and experiences and interpret them in different ways.
Thank you and 'Always be inspired'
J.A.M

momentary inspiration.

sit in a place that you feel comfortable and it will help you with your ideas.
if you are stuck on a description for a place or a personality for one of your characters. I found that being in a place that lets you be surrounded by people either on your own or with your friends is a great time to get past the blocks that you have.
Take in everything. The sights, smells, the touch of the seat you are sat at, the feel of the counter your stood at. The people you are near, reinvent the conversations around you. write everything down, no matter how small, even if it the colour of a clip that a girl is wearing, it does not matter. Your surroundings will help you with everything. Always count in your own views and change things to how you want them to be. Just think, i could just be the beginning of you new short story or novel.
Don't be scared of what you see. Look deeper between the lines of what people say, determine the reasoning behind the body language. No one will ever find out what you are writing and no one will really care, because it will be yours. They might be the subject of your views but they are a base line of your creativity and your own imagination. Your friends are there to help you in so many ways. They are not just people to confide in, not just someone to have fun with or talk to when you are too happy to stay on your own. They are a baseline to everything you write and what you think.
If you are in school, college, university, a full time job or nothing at all devoting your life to your write, expose yourself to everything. To the people in the world, to the new cultures you can discover if you peel away the surface of what people make you believe. You just have to observe everything around you.
'Write because your passion is to create' E.R.H
Momentary inspiration
J.A.M

Do you ever find yourself sat in a room unable to say anything? If you do that you might relate.
Being a writer has all its up and downs but i have found that being in a room with friends, family who ever it might be. It could well be a starting point to a plot for a new idea you have got. Or a base line for a character or even that one title you could not think of.
I always find myself in the corner or on the floor listening to the buzzing conversation around me. But you know what, I love it. Watching people behave with each other and how they talk with each other.
A few of my characters have actually been sparked off by my family. my brother and my cousins have helped mould the basis of a few of them.
What i am getting at is that just because you are with family you should be relaxed and let the ideas fall with in you.
When you are relaxed inspiration comes naturally. When you sit at your deck you should already have the idea, because when you try and make ideas come it never really works out, well for me it doesn't. Your brain stop and this is what usually makes 'writers block' strike.
Just stay relaxed and always have a pen in your pocket or in your bag. Somewhere where it is handy, there have been too many ideas passed by because I never had a pen.
Thank you and always be inspired.
J.A.M

I once asked myself why i wrote. I looked at my work and the first thought that came to my head 'This could be better' then the thrill of getting to edit my own work and re reading and re typing and knowing that it is my work and i know that someone around the world will be reading that at some point in my life. I know that i can changed everything and anything or keep some of it and change it to what i think sounds better.
        So ask yourself this question 'Why am i writing?' the answer runs a long the lines of 'Becuase i want to' Then that it perfect. You will not fel the same passion i do if you write becuase you are thinking about what you readers might think. If you do that you will not produce something as best to your abillity.
         Dont be scared of what you write. Imbrace the thrill and cherish the happiness that you will feel when you have finished your first chapter, first novel. It does not matter what it is. No matter what people think, what you feel will make you feel so proud of you work. Only write becuase YOU want to write.
        Tell everyone or tell no one. It does not matter, keep it to yourself scream it from the top of a mountain it does not matter what you do. just remember wirting is exploring inside your self.
Have faith in everything you do.
J.A.M

When my friend told me that she had a friend that had a book already published. The first thought that went through my head was that she might not like what i have done. To me my work is not as good as other people think. When i write something i know that it is only a base line for what i want it to end up like.
I was so scared to send some of my work to her i thought that there was no point. I had been shot down dozens of times before and i thought that this was no different.
But you now it think that it was the best decision i have made ever.
People should not be scared of others to read your work. You should always have confidence in your work. Let your best friend read it. Let your parents read it. I have not told all my family that i have been meeting up with my advisor because i am still scared of what they might think.
If you are a writer and you have a family as big as mine then, announce it to the world that you are getting somewhere. Have hope in them, you know more than they might. They will ask you questions about it, you have to be confident in your work.
But most of all have faith in your own work.
J.A.M

I am in the middle of getting my first novel sorted out and you know I thought that it might be really hard.
But i have found that there is something much more relaxing about it. Knowing that there you have spent ages on this one idea just expanding and expanding again and again. You feel something like acumplishment when you give it to and editor or adviser in my case. You feel like you have really done something with your life other than just sticking to the same broring life with the 9-5 job.
My friend told me this 'Writing is an act of hope' and i agree with her. She got it from Jack Heffron.
If I am going to give any advice then please read this.
No matter what you do with your life always remember never be afraid to put something down that is in your head. Dont be scared of the writer inside of you.