I have mentioned before that i am going to do something really sweet from my brother who is going away to University. Well, I thought that I'd keep you all updated and I have finished.

I am ready to get it done and published, but I'm worried, sometimes I get the feeling that my brother doesn't really appreciate things like i would, I don't know if he will like it. I try to reassure myself that things are okay and he will like it. But on occasion, like tonight, i got a serious case of the jitters. To be a writer, I am donating some of my best work towards my brother and i had a serious thought: 'What if he doesn't like it?' I have found that i have asked myself that so many times over the days I've been working on the master piece for him. But the answers keep swirling in my head like a shark in water. All i can do is HOPE and sometimes i have a lack in it.

 I have tried my hardest, but you must know that inspiration doesn't come when asked for, it appears when you never have a bleedin' pen. So i have tried everything. I have walked around my favorite places and my worst. But then I found retreating inside myself in a quiet spot on my own and remember all the good times I've had with my brother instead of the bad I have got to where i am right now. I remember all the laughs and ignored all the arguments. I have remembered everything good about him, but used a few of his bad points, but I'm sure he wont mind.

Well, that's what i did and that's how I have got to where I am right now. But you may ask why i do this for my brother, the answer is this: Without my brother, i wouldn't be who i am today and when i think about all the good points of my life he has been there and i want him to be the star of this one. But then when i think of low points, he is always there to pick me up again when i need him too.

But please, just let me have one last nag before i leave you tonight, i told my parents and they didn't congratulate me on my greatest achievement then were more interested in their program rather than say well done to their child on her biggest moment in life. I sometimes wonder why i bother telling them anything. I don't know if i have don't this because I wanted it, or because i wanted my brother Jake to have it. I just hope o am doing the right thing here for him because I don't think that there is anything else i can give him other than my words in this book for him.

I just wanted to say thank you, again, to E.R,Hardcastle of erhinspired.blogspot.com she has helped me out a few times for this as well. Please look at her blog, i am sure you will feel inspired to go ahead and write something of you own.
Thank you,
J.A.M